I need them.

I dont know what to do.

Whoever is reading this blog please tell me.

Secret readers, stalkers or blog hoppers.

Please leave comments and tags.

Please tell me what to do.

Give me your advice.

Give me your reasons.
I need them.

Dead

When I grow up...

When I grow up.. hmm..

I WANNA EARN ALOT OF MONEY.( of course la.. which faggot dun wanna earn money =.=)

OK.. these are my dream whatever you called it la..

things that i reaaaaaally reaaaalllyyy want when I grow up.

- A BMW ( whatever series, 7 series is preferred)

- A private house. Like a bungalow or perhaps smaller kinda thingy? I dun want too big a house, i just want a house with a HUGE HUGE FRONT AND BACKYARD. ( Location : sixth avenue preferred)

- Gonna invite lotsa people to my house and party.

A private pool, with jacuzzi and spa and BBQ. HUGE speakers with a live bar.

Party party like cool onlyy huh?

I think too much for now... haha... but is good to have goals..

Although they say goals are not meant to be achieved.

Just wish some of it might actually come true.

ARGHHH~~~

I want to get married reallly realllyy fast...

Married to my awesum wifeee:D favouriteeee=D

settle down... and start a cool life...

yeaa~~

SWISH SWOSH WOOSH WAASSHHHH

SPISH SPASH CRASH WONK KABOOM...

BLAST OFF~!

Blehh~~

Imma back.

HAhs.

its kinda great now knowing that there are alot of really cool people out there in the working world.

Back to enjoying life WHILE I STILL CAN.

I bet when school starts, the shit is gonna GET amplified like many many more times.

I dun want anymore shit alrdy. Had enuff of it.

ARGH~~!~!
ok.

bye.

random.

Who is this girl?

After so much, I've finally come to realise my mistake.

I know its my fault firstly to even go and drink.

I know I fail in taking care of myself.

I am so sorry.

After reading your previous blog post.

I've come to discover the many sacrifices you've made, the much taken for granted care and concern you showered on me.

The affection you showed me.

I am sorry too.

However, thats all in the past.

All those are history.

Lets put them aside.

Lets start anew.

Lets love each other again.

Lets gain back that feeling that was lost along the way.

I'm sure we will be able to make it out.

I will love you more.

Try to show more affection towards you.

There is this girl, whom I can't stop thinking.

Who is always the person I thing about before going to sleep.

Who is the first person I think about when I wake up.

Who constantly reminded me what is love.

Who constantly showed me what is love.

Who made me realize how lucky I am.

Who made me appreciate her as my girlfriend.

No, she is not a supermodel.

She is not super hot.

She is not super pretty.

She is not super smart.

She's just a normal average girl with a not so average height.

She's my girlfriend.

She's the one I will love forever.

She's the one I will marry and grow old with.

She's my wife-to-be.

Not everybody is perfect.

We do have our flaws.

She can be a little too demanding at times.

She can be controlling me too much at times.

However, I don't care!

She's got my interest at heart.

She's got my well-being at heart.

She cares for me.

She just want to make sure I am fine.

She just want me to study hard and get good results.

At the end of the day, I am going to be the one who profited from all these.

Not her.

But why is she helping me so much?

Because she loves me so much.

She loves me too much.

She loves me and loves me and loves me and loves me again.

Her love for me is unconditional.

Where else can I find someone who loves me so much like that other than my parents.

Nowhere else!

I cant possibly find another her.

For she, will only be, the one and only in my heart.

As much as she loves me, I am going to love her back much more.

This girl is not someone from a wealthy family,

Is not someone from too broke a family too.

She's not famous, she loves dragon and lion dance,

She loves food, she is afraid of dogs,

She hates to wear repeated clothings.

She loves to shop at bugis street.

She is just probably the-girl-next-door kind of girl.

But, she is the girl, that I, Lester Ng love the most.

Who is she?

She is non other than ONG TING YAN

Flyer.. FLY FLY FLY AWAY~!~!

Had my first flyer with my dearest:D

Hmmm... actually.. it was rather boring... but then, a cool experience.

30mins was faster than expected.

I managed to persuade my toot to go with me. HOHO.

Guess I have some skills in persuading people huh?

HAHAHAHAHA.

P.S. Random people standing all around.

Love my TooT alot :D

Updates 10 march 2010

Just wanna blog about my dad's birthday.

Seriously, IT WAS A BLAST!!!!

First time me and my gf have so MUCH FUN with SO MANY PEOPLE..

started off with steamboat at bugis.

HAHAA...

De flow of meat just wont stop lo.

And IDK why, I really freaking eat a whole loaf of meat.

I think i alrdy ate like half a pig worth of meat.

LOLS!!

But I have to say is awesome TTM.

Makes me wonder how come these steamboat restaurant are still earning money.

Also bought a burberry PERFUME for my dad.. shared with my GF.

And also a CAKE... PROUDLY SPONSORED BY MY GIRL FRIEND!!! Love her SO MUCH~!~!

After steamboat entire gang of people about 20+ people headed down to Kbox @ erm.. CHINATOWN.

Ok.. the only flipside is I dun LIKE CHINESE SONGS.

I HATE THEM!

No offense.. but seriously.. it gets irritating...

played SOME games... DRANK... AND WAS ASSUMED DRUNK BY MY DUMBO GF=.=

BUT I AM NOT... I seriously say now that i am not drunk tat night..

I know it when I am drunk.

After that Happy Contented dad fetched Valerie and GF home.

And then home sweet home for me.

Slept @ 5am.

Way to go:D

Updates

I need a poll...

Whose leg is sexier..

I do tink mine is =)

I bought my toot a FP polo tee for VDAY PRESENT.. and i am proud of it!

haha

cny

CNY is here..

have been gambling quite alot.

And luck isnt on my side =(

haix.

Ever wonder?

Ever wondered when you are a parent,

and your kid has got a boy/girl friend, how would you, as a parent feel?

As a parent, I would think that once my kid has got a partner, its the end or near end of parent-child communication.

There would be no more " going out on weekends to have a nice warm family dinner/outing"

No more time with your kid.

Child comes home and spend time talking over the phone to the girlfriend.

Spending huge amount of time going out with girlfriend.

And than one day, probes the question of bringing the girlfriend home and stay overnight.

And you start to suspect, start to worry, and dont really trust them.

I do think that when we as young couples have a girlfriend, family bonding is still important.

Letting your parents know your girlfriend, letting them know her, hang out with her, and meet her more often would definitely pull them closer.

A better understanding of the girlfriend.

All these relationships are important,

because it will reach a state whereby we, as kids, would really want the parent to understand how we feel towards our partners.

How we want our parents to trust us.

A simple birthday present for my mom shared between both of us could mean nothing to us, but alot to them.

It makes them feel that they are not left out despite our lack of time spent with them.

It makes them feel good.

WHIS WHOSH

I am stress..

Sometimes, I knw is wrong to blame.

Budden.. this is de fact ..

I mean.. i am in LS for so long.. and i hardly or should I say never had I said this :" because of studies, I cant attend so and so performance"

NEVER!~!

And now.. just because they take it for granted,

Now when i say I have to study at home.

They like not happy.

I mean.. is very unfair.

SO WHAT IF I AM THE COACH SON?

SO WHAT IF MY UNCLE IS DE BIG COACH?

SO WHAT IF MY ENTIRE FAMILY IS IN THIS?

Does this makes me SPECIAL!?

NO NO NO NOOOO NOOOO NOOOOOO NNNNNNOOOOOOO~!!!!!

I have my human rights.

All other people can do this cannot do that dun nid do this.. don nid do tat..

EXCEPT FOR ME!!

And now when I have less time for my studies, my personal time, and my everything that is NOT RELATED TO LS, WHO CAN I BLAME?!?!?!

PEOPLE CAN DONT ATTEND BECAUSE OF STUDIES/PROJECTS/PERSONAL AFFAIRS.

And I cant?

And when I start screwing up my studies and stuffs, I get a scolding from my parents?

DONT YOU THINK IS SO UNFAIR?!

I mean, I just want to have my own opinion and HOPEFULLY, somebody... OR ANYBODY can understand and respect my decision.

HOWEVER, it seems that nobody gets me, starting off with my parents.

Oh wellsss...~~

Hate it when my parents quarrel.

Correction, when they are having cold war.

I am trapped in the middle with no directions to follow.

Life is hard as the only child when you parents arent on good terms with each other.

This sucks big time.

Is it too much that I am asking for?

Understand me please ):

FUCK MY MOM!!
FUCKING WISH SHE DIES SOMETIMES!!

KNNBCCB!!!

WHAT THE FUCK HAVE I DONT WRONG TO DESERVE SUCH SHIT!

WTF!!!

FUCK OFF!

JUST FUCKING DIE!

I hate BBQ pits.

Today stayed back in school to start on our project aka the model.

Started off smoothly.

Till the part where i start to construct the BBQ pit.

I swear I took like a freaking one hour plus to cut the stupid ice cream stick which took forever to cut.

Cause I am merely using a freaking scissors to cut something as thick as wood.

Then, 9 out of the 10 sticks i cut snap, or a piece of wood would chip off.

And is painstakingly hard to cut as my hands would hurt like crap.

When I finally glued all the pieces together, I admit it didnt look nice.

BUT! BUT BUT!!! STUPID DUMB ASS SON OF A BITCH MOTHERBASTARD IDIOTIC IRRITATING PIECE OF NUISANCE AIDS INFECTED COW DUNG DOG SALIVA DEREK JINXIAN ADAM LAMBERT AND MY MOTHER FRIEND GO FREAKING FLICK THE ENTIRE PIT AWAY.

It was abit comical seeing the little BBQ pit fly miles away and landed with a soft thud on the floor.

But I spent too too long and too too much pain and effort building it ok!

He just flicked it away and told me he will do one for me.

HE BETTER DO IT BEFORE I SMACK HIS FACE!!!!

OK.

OFF!

Got to :
Do concept write out.

Study.

Autocad detailing.

ZZZZZZZZZZ

Today. Something cool happened.
Not gonna tell you what cool thing happened.
Something that made me touched.
Something that make me love you so so so much more.
Headed down to Astons @ lavender for our lunch.
They had really delicious western food there.
Enjoyed it alot.

Lotsa things happened.
Chingay rehearsal was.. boring, but fun.
HAHAHA.
Shall not talk more!
BYES!

One month passed just like this.

So fast.

So much has happened.

We're just another month closer to each other.

Watched toothfairy today.

Wayne Johnson has big big solid muscles~!

and he's getting older, but his teeth.. is damm white.

LOLS!

Watched at Lido and the theater is OMG big.

Its so big that it makes it so empty.

Me and TooT has the entire row for ourselves.

I still love u alot.

Almost Lover

Your fingertips across my skin

The palm trees swaying in the wind

Images... ...

You sang me Spanish lullabies

The sweetest sadness in your eyes

Clever trick

I never want to see you unhappy

I thought you'd want the same for me

Goodbye, my almost lover

Goodbye, my hopeless dream

I'm trying not to think about you

Can't you just let me be?

So long, my luckless romance

My back is turned on you

Should've known you'd bring me heartache

Almost lovers always do

We walked along a crowded street

You took my hand and danced with me

Images... ...

And when you left you kissed my lips

You told me you would never let forget these images, no... ...

I never want to see you unhappy

I thought you'd want the same for me

Goodbye, my almost lover

Goodbye, my hopeless dream

I'm trying not to think about you

Can't you just let me be?

So long, my luckless romance

My back is turned on you

Should've known you'd bring me heartache

Almost lovers always do

I cannot go to the ocean

I cannot drive the streets at night

I cannot wake up in the morning

Without you on my mind

So you're gone and I'm haunted

And I bet you are just fine

Did I make it that easy

To walk right in and out of my life?

Goodbye, my almost lover

Goodbye, my hopeless dream

I'm trying not to think about you

Can't you just let me be?

So long, my luckless romance

My back is turned on you

Should've known you'd bring me heartache

Almost lovers always do

A beautiful song.

I&E is LOVE!

OKays peps.

MUAH is here to blorgggggg

So it turns out that today was our final I&E (entrepreneurship) presentation.

And as stated that it is a formal presentation.

I've once again unearth my formal attire from my wardrobe and put it to use in like? more than a year?

Woke up in de morning just to iron it ok!

Anyways, we were the first group to present,

and i can conclude we did awesumly well for this presentation.

I think I am damm good at presenting/talking/ getting information across people's head.

Perhaps its my talent?

Imma not trying to boast here... but is being very serious ok!

Went to find missss wan later on.. and realize our autocad is still not tat stable.

Oh wells, time to get it fixxed before more shit happens.

Den headed to Biochem remedial lessons... BUT BUT BUT BUT!!!!

before that,,, ahaaa one very special occasion occurred.

I met my toot for lunch.

Seriously never get bored of the japanese curry there.

Today was a fun eventfull meaningfulllll superrr duper cool day that i kinda liked.

Shall end off with a photo that we took.. that I think.. is

GODDAMM INSANELY NICE~!

I whale bee bag !!!

get what i am trying to say?

If you don,t, I think ur IQ level is awfully low

Shit.

Brand new start

Lets start fresh again.

Put all our woes behind,

Discard all hard feelings,

Thrash out all sorrows.

We still start new.

Looking forward to brighter day's ahead.

Miss Wan, I hope you dont see this.

YOU SUCK!

YOU REALLY SUCK!!

YOUR PROJECTS ARE THE HARDEST THAT I HAVE SEEN.

I HATE YOU!!!!!

SO MUCH SHIT TO DO!!

ALL NOT EASY!!

DEADLINE SO SHORT!!

YOU WANT PEOPLE TO DIE AR?!?!?!

TMD!!!!

>.<

Huge thanks to my beloved TooT for sharing part of her gummies in a really really really cooooolll glass container..

I really love it alot, as much as I love her.

The gummies is really some drug addiction thingy and I simply cant stop once I started munching of them.

Yeaps.. I have finished the entire bottle.

In like less than five minutes.

I really love it alot.

Thanksss <3

I am really tired of being caught in between.

I am really tired of being upset.

Tired of being irritated.

Tired of being fooled.

Tired of everything.

Perhaps I need to really take a break.

But how?! With exams and projects piling up.

Personal affairs and academic affairs,

when you messed up this 2 shit at one go, you wish you were dead at times.

I dont know what to do now!

I am feeeeeellinnnngg so down, and all i get was another dressing down from you.

All I wanted was a little console,

But.. I doubt I'll get it though.

Lester Ng is fugging sad today.

DONT TALK TO ME.

FUG OFF!!!!

I just... ... ...

I just want you to know, when am I feeling sad.

I just want you to know, over what reasons am I feeling sad.

I just want you to know, you are the only person that can change the way I feel.

I just want you to know sometimes, my words say something but my heart feels otherwise.

I just want you to know, how I felt.

I just want you to know, I love you.

I Dont Know!!

What is wrong these few days?

My temper has been running short big time.

Got irritated by minute insignificant stuffs.

I've messed up alot of things in my life recently.

I need to reflect.

I need to know which part of me went haywire,

AND FIX IT BIG TIME.

I know not everyone is perfect,

but mine has gone a little too imperfect.

What is wrong today?

IDK.

What is wrong today again?

Everything gone wrong.

Out of place.

Part of my heart tells me to do this.

Another half says otherwise.

I've got to choose between whats right for the situation,

And whats right for me.

I've been really down these few days.

IDK what is wrong.

Damm.. i really need to find a solution out of this mess.

I am sorry for all these things.

I know you will always deny the ugly truth.

But in your heart, I really felt something amiss.

I really want to know.

What is wrong with me.

What is life?

What is life?

Wiki defines it as " is a characteristic that distinguishes objects that have self-sustaining biological processes from those that do not—either because such functions have ceased (death), or else because they lack such functions and are classified as "inanimate."

However, sometimes one begin to wonder,

Why is there such things on earth.

Life on earth.

Walking creatures.

Walking humans who talk, work, play and do almost all other mundane work of a everyday life.

And there is death.

What is death?

When a person stops breathing?

When something ceases to exist anymore.

When something, which once has life in it, becomes nothing more than thrash.

So what comes between life and death?

What makes humans surviving in this world so interesting?

Sometimes I would really wonder is everything worth so much.

We have love.

We have partners.

We have wifes.

Love is something so powerful in the amateur states.

However, why do break ups happen?

Why do divorces happen?

Is there really such thing as there is no more love?

I don't think so.

Love is everlasting.

Through quarrels, through fights and arguments,

We will just get to know and understand each other a little more only to overcome all these.

Is really hard to blog about such things,

As a much much higher level of vocabulary is required which is beyond my shallow means.

Shallow words, deep thoughts, all penned down in this little thing known as a blog.

Perhaps life really mean much more.

HIGH~~

OMG!

I am so high now.. haha..

just listening to some songs and i got high while studying.. totally wts...

We got the hotel, motel, holiday inn~~~

OK.. shall blog abit since i am so highhh... wahahaha..

Few days ago, (friday) stayed in school till de lights are out.

Which is like.. around 10pm.

I met my TooT... and we stayed in the atrium to do our projects.

And den, slowly but surely, the atrium lights starts going off ( due to lateness i guess?)

And coz we were sitted in de middle of the atrium, so lights should go off one row by one row.

However.. we realised that after a while, all the lights around us are turned off except the few above us.. totally eerie..

But in the end, all the lights still went off.

Somehow, IDK why... I am not afraid at all.. just slowly shut down my computer and we slowly walked outtt.. haha..

Forget about your boyfriends

And meet me in the hotel room.

You can bring your girlfriends

and meet me in the hotel room.

WOOOOO~~~~~

Pitbull rocks my socks~!

Rocky road to Dublin

In the merry month of May, From my home I started,

Left the girls of Tuam, Nearly broken hearted,

Saluted father dear, Kissed my darlin' mother,

Drank a pint of beer, My grief and tears to smother,

Then off to reap the corn, And leave where I was born,

I cut a stout blackthorn, To banish ghost and goblin,

In a brand new pair of brogues, I rattled o'er the bogs,

And frightened all the dogs,On the rocky road to Dublin.

One, two, three, four five,

Hunt the hare and turn her

Down the rocky road

And all the ways to Dublin,

Whack-fol-lol-de-ra.

In Mullingar that night, I rested limbs so weary,

Started by daylight, Next mornin' light and airy,

Took a drop of the pure, To keep my heart from sinkin',

That's an Irishman's cure, Whene'er he's on for drinking.

To see the lasses smile, Laughing all the while,

At my curious style, 'Twould set your heart a-bubblin'.

They ax'd if I was hired, The wages I required,

Till I was almost tired, Of the rocky road to Dublin.

In Dublin next arrived, I thought it such a pity,

To be so soon deprived, A view of that fine city.

Then I took a stroll, All among the quality,

My bundle it was stole, In a neat locality;

Something crossed my mind, Then I looked behind;

No bundle could I find, Upon my stick a wobblin'.

Enquirin' for the rogue, They said my Connacht brogue,

Wasn't much in vogue, On the rocky road to Dublin.

From there I got away, My spirits never failin'

Landed on the quay As the ship was sailin';

Captain at me roared, Said that no room had he,

When I jumped aboard, A cabin found for Paddy,

Down among the pigs I played some funny rigs,

Danced some hearty jigs, The water round me bubblin',

When off Holyhead, I wished myself was dead,

Or better far instead, On the rocky road to Dublin.

The boys of Liverpool, When we safely landed,

Called myself a fool; I could no longer stand it;

Blood began to boil, Temper I was losin',

Poor ould Erin's isle They began abusin',

"Hurrah my soul," sez I, My shillelagh I let fly;

Some Galway boys were by, Saw I was a hobble in,

Then with a loud hurray, They joined in the affray.

We quickly cleared the way, For the rocky road to Dublin.

DUI BU QI

I am sorry for today.

I din mean it.

Sorry.

SO many days of work.... so much shit..

So stress.... No one understands me.

FML

Sweet stuffs just deserve a second chance

Year 2009 is history.

The start of new year.

Another year ahead, filled with fun and excitement, as well as sadness and sorrows.

It's gonna be a harder year, but I'll pull through it. I know I will.

In terms of me and her, I know things will go very smoothly.

Each time we face a problem, I know we'll solve it.

OK!! I AM HERE TO BLOG BOUT MY LONG DAY ON NYE!

Headed down to bugis to meet with TooT and clique.

HAHA.. started off realllyyy really weird.

Cause is like all 4 girls and I am the only guy :/

And so happen, when I met them, I was on the phone.

She said I purposely act one talk on the phone.

WTS TOTALLY!!

I dont act ok!

Anyways, headed down to this lil chinese restaurant and had dinner.

As I wasnt feeling hungry + the fact the I felt very weird, I din eat much.

Didnt intend to eat at first however, shared a plate of rice with TooT later on.

And than, things happened really quick.

Just make it short and simple.

- Headed to suntec.

- Went to get a few drinks at carefour.

- Walked down to Flyer

- Walked around to find a nice spot.

- Settle down.

- Me and her went off first.

Felt bad leaving her friends like that. :/

Headed down to Frankie Jiao Lian's house afterwards.

Had a very wonderful wonderful time all the way till next morning.

Gambled alot, Lost EVEN MORE! =(

My toot lost alot alot.

We lose so much until my dad has to help us to pay when we lost again.

HAHAHAHA.

But oh wells, is new year, no harm doing a little of gambling i guess?

HAHA.

And let the pictures filled up the missing blanks.

For last year’s words belong to last year’s language,

Ring out the old, ring in the new,

And next year’s words await another voice.

Ring, happy bells, across the snow,

And to make an end is to make a beginning,

Ring out the false, ring in the true.

A new year begins in a snow-storm of white vows.... ....

WOAH

Much has happened the past few days.

Dont know what to blog about.

Dont know where to start.

Perhaps I should start from where i stopped and continue.

But that has to wait till i get pictures from FB profiles.

till den.

CIAOS~!