After today, I finally found it not so hard to cry afterall.
Humans cannot be trusted, even if its your very own father.
After tonight, I know what is it that love hurts.
And I've learn a lesson not to trust anybody too much.
I've put all my trust in you and looked what happened.
This scar cannot be healed.
This is it.
I don't know whats instored for me in the near future.
I dont wanna know either.
All I know, is not going to be bright.
I'm very helpless.
I don't know what to do.
I need some answers please.
If there's a god above, why cant you help me.
Give me some answers that I've waiting for too long just to hear it.
My life is pretty much in a huge mess right now.
So much things that I've knew never existed.
How I wish someone... ANYONE, would be beside me.. and listen to me rant.
I don't know where to head in life, I've lost my goals, I've lost my way.
Is there no turning back?
When am I going to be a step closer in hearing what I wanna hear way too long ago.
I'm so lost.
Perhaps not even god can help me out right now.
Looks like imma face this shit alone.
So be it then, I'll learn to be stronger the next time I stand back up on my feet.
But how long is that gonna be.
I cant even find strength to do anything.
Looks like is gonna be tough.
I deserve this shit.
I blame myself.
Good night.
Life suck!